Welcome to Your Twenties
Today is my birthday! I am twenty years old. Today is a day, so I feel obligated to post. Here are some lists:
20 songs that are important to me:
Look At Me Now - Charlie Puth
"This is for everybody who've always put me down: I hope you open up your eyes and take a good look at me now"
Dark Blue - Jack’s Mannequin
"This flood is slowly rising up, swallowing the ground beneath my feet. Tell me how anybody thinks under this condition. I'll swim as the water rises up."
Right For Me - Dave Days
"Now I'm all alone, yeah I freaked out and let you go. These memories come down crashing, making sense of my actions. I was wrong, but now I know you were right for me."
Secrets - State Champs
"Something's telling me I never could have ruined everything you want in life because you never put in effort, the truth is you were never doing it right...I dropped my forgiveness, it's lying face down on the floor"
Every Time I look for You - Blink-182
"It always seems to far to drive the point home, send more letters. Pray tomorrow ends up better. Every time I look for you the sun goes down."
Fly With Me - Jonas Brothers
"If it's you and me forever or it's you and me right now, that'd be alright. If we chase the stars to lose our shadows, Peter Pan and Wendy turned out fine, so won’t you fly with me?"
Pop Punk Pizza Party - Sunrise Skater Kids
"Mom and Dad just don't understand, It's my life, it's my time to take a stand. I'll never see Baltimore again, ever again"
When We Die - Bowling for Soup
"I can put back all the pieces they just might not fit the same...I know that we're gonna be fine and the tattooed mistakes are gonna fade over time. As long as we live and time passes by and we won't get it back when we die"
Figure Me Out - The Summer Set
"But I believe there's more to life than all my problems, maybe there's still hope for me to start again...I think it's time for me to figure me out"
Build My Life - Housefires
"I will build my life upon Your love, it is a firm foundation. And I will put my trust in You alone and I will not be shaken."
Beside You - 5 Seconds of Summer
“She sleeps alone, my heart wants to come home, I wish I was, I wish I was beside you”
Already Home - A Great Big World
"Don't you know that I spend all my nights counting backward the days 'til I'm home? When you're scared and alone, just know that I'm already home."
Lightning - Alex Goot
"And I've been catching myself thinking of it at three in the morning. Every day I chase after her, but I can’t catch lightning."
If These Sheets Were the States - All Time Low
"If these sheets were the states and you were miles away, I’d fold them end over end to bring you closer to me."
Thinking Out Loud - Ed Sheeran
"Oh me, I fall in love with you every single day and I just wanna tell you I am."
Five Colours in Her Hair - McFly
"She's got a lip ring and 5 colours in her hair, not into fashion but I love the clothes she wears. Her tattoo's always hidden by her underwear, but she doesn't care."
The Middle - Jimmy Eat World
"It just takes some time, little girl, you're in the middle of the ride. Everything will be just fine. Everything will be alright."
Jesus of Suburbia - Green Day
"And there's nothing wrong with me, this is how I'm supposed to be. In a land of make believe that don't believe in me."
Classic - MKTO
"Ima pick you up in a Cadillac, like a gentleman bringing' glamour back"
Missing You - All Time Low
“Hold on tight, this ride is a wild one...now don't lose your fight, kid. It only takes a little push to pull on through. You'll be missing out, and we'll be missing you."
20 places that are significant in my life:
My Grandma Lynne’s House in Piedmont
My Grandma Barbara’s House in Madison (not her current house...sad)
The Mini Golf Course in Geneva on the Lake
My street in La Cañada (so many reasons)
Loyola Marymount University
In-N-Out (La Crescenta, Glendale, Westchester, Kettleman City)
The Park Plaza
The ASB Room
Long Beach Convention Center
Anaheim Convention Center
The North Gym
LCHS Room 305
Church of the Lighted Window
Ms. Pruden’s 2nd-grade classroom
YMCA Building Blocks (CCY, VHY, CVY)
20 dates that are stuck in my head and why they are important:
July 18, 2010, the day I had my first kiss, a date that is stuck in my brain instead of useful information.
September 7, 2010, the day my first “boyfriend” asked me out. Sometimes when I see that it’s the 7th of the month I think about how long it’s been since 7th grade.
July 11, 2011, the day my cousins Louise was born, officially ending my “only granddaughter” streak. Little did I know that she would become someone so important to me, so quickly.
June 28, 2012, the day I met Dave Days! I cried.
December 13, 2012, the day my Uncle Jim died. I think about him every day and will always have so many questions.
December 23, 2013, my 16th Birthday. The last birthday I remember being really great.
March 10, 2014, the day I got my driver’s license. Being in the car is my favorite place to be.
December 5, 2014, the day I was named a Princess of La Cañada. Forever grateful for that year of adventures.
May 16, 2015, my prom. 14 months of planning and years of anticipation. For four hours that ended at IHOP.
June 15, 2015, the first day of YCS, the program that changed my life.
October 2, 2015, the day I made a big decision and escaped.
October 5, 2015, my first real failure, broadcasted on KTLA.
October 31, 2015, the day I stayed home all night waiting for my cat to come home. He never did. I think about him every day.
May 20, 2016, the day of Senior Awards. One of the proudest days of my life.
May 27, 2016, my high school graduation.
June 5, 2016, a good day.
August 26, 2016, the day I moved into my dorm at LMU.
December 23, 2016, my 19th birthday. Haunts me.
August 27, 2017, LMU’s Class of 2021’s Academic Convocation.
December 23, 2017, today. The first day of my twenties.
20 goals for the next 10 years:
Go to Europe
Get a job in the “real world” (whatever that means)
Meet Nick Jonas
Move out of La Cañada forever
Give a TED Talk
See the Backstreet Boys live
Move to New York
Get a tattoo
Get an orange cat (or just adopt a cute one)
Go to some weddings
Go to Matthew’s high school and college graduations
Fly first class
Become an aunt??
Go on a legitimate road trip
Share my testimony
Pet a tiger
Go on a ski trip
Do a 5k (we’re setting realistic goals here)
California wine tour