These last few weeks, I've realized something annoying.
No one seems satisfied.
For months and weeks of my life, it was "get a job, you need to make your own money", which ultimately turned into "Well, you're only making minimum wage".
What used to be "17 hours a week is a lot to handle" became "why aren't you picking up more shifts?".
What used to be setting and achieving goals is suddenly setting and ultimately being disappointed when you reach your goal, but nothing beyond.
I was really excited when my SAT score went from a 1750 to an 1880, but my excitement only lasted so long until I was saddened it wasn't a 1900.
I was excited to get into and commit to LMU, and I am still excited about going, but I won't lie and say that I have moments of disappointment in myself. I was having a conversation with one of my peers about college admissions and test scores, when she said something along the lines of "she was really disappointed she didn't get into LMU, their acceptance rate is 50%, everyone gets in".
That single statement disappointed me, but I proceeded to ask what her SAT score and GPA is, which my friend proceeded to answer with a hesitant "I don't know, but below 2000 and not a 4.0", as if those scores are average.
I'm sure she didn't mean to, but she not only made me feel like an idiot for having a 3.5, but made me feel awful for going to a school where apparently "everyone" (less than 50%) gets in.
I feel bad for people, and sometimes myself, for having unreasonably high expectations for themselves and others. I feel bad for people who waste time looking for something better instead of embracing life the way it is and what's to come.
Don't get me wrong, having high expectations can be incredibly rewarding, but not when you're tearing yourself and others down.